Friday, March 30, 2012

Burt and Success

Apologies for the extremely dumb-ed out title to this post.

Yesterday, my friend Goat and I attended a really fun and well-presented talk by Ron Burt (RB) who is currently visiting the U. Among other things, this sociologist fulfilled my quotient of being quite the entertaining kind and kept the small crowd of intellects , academics and skeptics amused through dialogue and pictures.

I must admit that I started off as being curiously interested in his work (As a side, RB is the father of the structural holes concept) .. And as the talk came to a close, strangely enough his arguments weren't so convincing anymore, or maybe a better word to use is non-intuitive. Ron spoke about Network-Related Personality and the Agency Question: Multi-Role Evidence from a Virtual World. He had stats and graphs extrapolated from actual data and studies on EverQuest , but something didn't fit.

I think his study seemed to imply that loosely associated individuals (i.e. those that have weaker connections within their social clusters), have a higher chance of attaining success and growth in the industry. Yes, so if you are part of a network (personal or professional) that has more spokes as opposed to triangles, it is likely that you will have more opportunities to grow , make money and acquire other worldly successes. Other real life examples included - he came up with Professor-student & Gamer1-Gamer2 analogies that made sense on paper and were logical for the sake of argument. But then..and I don't admit this particular fact too much, but lo and behold - Logic isn't sufficient at times.. And there was no mental picture nor a culmination of ideas that formulated itself to make go 'Aaaah, of course it is like that'.

Here look at this graph:

(I tried in vain to change the orientation but Blogspot editor is not reciprocating in any way that I would call friendly. Dislike bad UIs)

Anyway.. so in the x-axis ,if you tilt your head just enough, is the degree of structural or network constraint in social space. Lower down, you have more structural holes (gaping at you) , i.e. fewer tight associations with any particular group of individuals. As you go further, the number of holes decrease and your community gets knitted tightly. This is scaled from 0 to 100, and as you can see 35 is the median. 100% implies you are literally stuck in the abyss of connections who think , eat , function, talk and probably even dress up like you.
On the y-axis (and for this you must do a 90 degree shift of the neck) there is an indicator of your Performance - measured using z score that takes into account evaluation, compensation and promotion.

Now the graph clearly shows that success is somewhat inversely proportional to the number of structural holes i.e. if you stand out or are mostly disassociated , you get more moolah. Hmm, okay so yes one has to be unique in contribution and bring out new ideas to get noticed, but here we are talking about actual associations with folk you surround yourself with, whether by choice or otherwise. Both virtual and in the real physical sense. Apparently, a smaller count of triangles est good.

So the questions to think about are - "How much does personality matter for network advantage?" OR "Is it even possible to measure an ego's network advantage in a given role and then deduce the level of success and achievement by simply looking at the ego's social graph?"

I tend to be aloof by choice and if needed. At several points I even felt like a loner, as if common sense wasn't common any more, as if I had more to criticize than appreciate in a world so imperfect. But I couldn't have made it this far without mooching off the brains and experiences of the several interesting people I have associated myself with over the years. I continue to do so, it's an ongoing process , like culturing bacteria in a petri-dish.

I haven't done research to say with any kind of conviction that I am right in my post analysis of RB's speech. And I don't have substantial proof other than a self example which isn't allowed in real world science. No personal biases and all that, right? However, I have made a decent number of climbs both in school and at work, and I believe I lie somewhere around the pencil squiggly in the graph. You know.. I like to think that I am special and dreamily stand out, but I know for sure that my ties, my social circle and the people I have subconsciously associated with have greatly influenced my current position. And I also like to think I have had a fair share of successes, and am happy even with a dwindling bank balance and a bus pass for the local metro *Smug* Clearly, degree of connected-ness is not the only factor influencing the good things you've achieved in life. Not black and white, but a million shades of grey.

Yes, I have picked my connections with deliberation. If you are my friend, then I hope it is evident to you that the conversations last long because I think your opinions are interesting and bring to the table a perspective I don't already see. And I secretly hope you reciprocate in similar thought. About life, about work, about the neighborhood tea stall, about the quality of fabric in a store, about a painting, about the sky and the constellations, about annoying traits in the family, about silence and nothing intelligent.. I am associated with you because deep inside , and even though I don't always realize it, your link adds a certain amount value which has some measure of positive weight in my graph. Else sadly enough, I would get bored and find myself eventually ignoring you simply put... I am so snooty like that. Oh well forgive me. Or don't.

P.S.
I know I don't have an audience as such, but what do you think? (Since you've reached till here, care to tell me?)

P.P.S.
Haha I just realized that I started and ended this post with apologies. Note to self that must be remedied -_-.

Read more about Ron Burt, his work and his brilliant mind - Personal pick as an engaging scientist and sociologist.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A Picture Speaks ...

... A Thousand Words, Or Maybe A Few Thousand Words.

Someday I will own a nice book shelf, till then a mini-makeshift-library housing my conquests of the past 2 years (actually, some old)

1. Why Fear ~ Robert Hicks, gifted by AMV
2. Pets That Want To Kill Themselves ~ Duncan Birmingham
3. Things That Suck ~ Jason Kaplan
4. Unlocking The Clubhouse ~ Margolis and Fisher
5. The Blessings of The Animals ~ Katrina Kittle
6. For You, My Daughter ~ A collection of poems edited by Susan Polis Schutz, gifted by LMM
7. The Design of Everyday Things ~ Donald A. Norman
8. Fooled by Randomness ~ Nassim Nicholas Taleb
9. Meaningful Coincidence ~ Marshall Cavendish
10. Dewey's Nine Lives ~ Vicki Myron with Bret Witter
11. The Faith To Doubt ~ Steven Batchelor
12. The Proust Project ~ Edited by Andre Aciman
13. Inside Intuit ~ Taylor Schroeder
14. Behind The Dolphin Smile ~ O'Barry with Coulbourn
15. Of Parrots and People ~ Mire Tweti
16. The Art of Racing In The Rain ~ Gareth Stein
17. Other Colors ~ Orhan Pamuk
18. God's Last Words : Reading the English Bible, from the Reformation to Fundamentalism ~ Katz
19. Through A Dog's Eyes ~ Jennifer Arnold
20. Women Don't Ask ~ Linda Babcock and Sarah Laschever
21. Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close ~ Jonathan Safran Foer
22. Luka And The Fire of Life ~ Salman Rushdie
23. Inside The Human Genome, A Case For Non-intelligent Design ~ John C. Avise
24. Introduction to Algorithms ~ Cormen et al
25. Geek Logik , Foolproof Equations For Everyday Life ~ Sundem
26. RESTful.NET ~ Jon Flanders
27. Maximum City ~ Suketu Mehta
28. Pitch ~ A collection of Poems by Todd Boss
29. Paws and Effect ~ Sharon Sakson
30. Love's Mind ~ An essay on Contemplative Life by John S. Dunne
31. Time, Space And Knowledge ~ Tarthang Tulku
32. The Knitchick's Guide To Sweaters ~ Karp and Wall
33. Walking Twin Cities ~ Day and Wick, gifted by NUB
34. Diary of a Wimpy Kid , Dog Days ~ Jeff Kinney
35. Global Vegetarian Cooking ~ Troth Wells
36. The New Best Recipe Collection ~ By the editors of Cook's Illustrated
37. How To Be A Domestic Goddess , Baking and the Art of Comfort Cooking ~ Nigella Lawson
38. The Candlelight Inn Cookbook ~ Lynette Gudrais
39. Tatting Jewellery ~ Lyn Morton, gifted by KAG
40. Slow Cooker Revolution ~ America's Test Kitchen
41. Best-Loved Slow Cooker Recipes ~ By Crockpot
42. Interaction Design , Beyond Human Computer Interaction ~ Sharp, Rogers and Preece
43. Product Design and Development ~ Ulrich and Eppinger
44. Intro to the Practice of Statistics ~ Moore , McCabe and Craig
45. Solo Guitar Playing, Book 1 ~ Noad
46. The Far Side Gallery, Book 4 ~ Gary Larso
47. Food Network Magazine, The Chocolate Issue
48. Learn To Tat ~ Janette Baker, gifted by KAG
49. Keep Calm And Have A Cupcake ~ A log of recent events , gifted by SS, from the Minneapolis Institute of Art
50. The Kindle ~ Housing the entire Diary of A Wimpy Kid series and other lesser known titles, gifted by SA
51. The Bible ~ NIV , gifted by GRS

Monday, March 19, 2012

Wordless Monday - #1

Boynton Wall- Acceptance- 15 March 2012

OK I guess I lied, not so wordless. But but but its my friend's birthday today and we're putting things in perspective, right Sully? Always right and smug.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Of Happy Endings

~Satin~
Unwrap
Unfold
Deep pleasure
Dizzy heights
Move in me, Move me.
Tease
Tantalize
Crush
Dream rush
Move in me , Move me.
-19 June 2008



Stray flowers on a windy morning - Pune nostalgia - 18 May 2006
[[^^ This image was originally posted in my older blog and now lies abandoned in the ethos of cyber space. I cannot wipe it off because I don't remember the answer to my safety question anymore. Someday I will write about 'so-safe-even-you-cant-find-it' Haha.
Original caption - If you are here, then you are not common ]]

My friend K who claims to watch too many TV shows recently sent me this text -
Meredith: Stop whining. This is your wedding day. You will go down that aisle. You will get married! If I have to kick you ass, every step by the way to get you there. You will walk down that aisle and you will get married. Do you hear me Cristina? We need this. We need you to get your happy ending.
- Grey's Anatomy - Didn't we almost have it all? - Season 3 , 2007

Call me silly, but I believe in happy endings. And multiple happy endings. Pun intended, of course. You know .. Life is about taking those risks and long shots. About putting yourself out there , even opening up to being completely vulnerable if it comes to that. It isn't about wearing your heart on your sleeve. Because - there is a different kind of strength when one is honest with what the body and mind wants. Being honest also implies that isn't about success rate any more. Some times you may have to laugh at your silly self, so it is important to be prepared and FIDO**. You live and you learn, you move on. Or you move in me, you move me.

Where your gardens have no walls..

** FIDO isn't Free Intimate Dog Obedience. Pbbbt! It is one of my favorite-favorite acronyms. You wonder? Then, I leave this as an exercise for thy curious self.

Monday, March 5, 2012

What is ze Gabutooch?

Strange title for a virtual space, many of you have asked me why. I planned for this post to go out much later, but I suppose today is as good a day as any other

Gabutooch translates to 'Come give me a kiss' if yelled at a particular pitch and tone to my dog Romeo. I cannot quite remember how that evolved, but I vaguely recollect that my brother used it while babbling to a little golden pup and the rest is pretty much history. I then adopted the babble sound as my online nickname a few years back. It's unique because it is just a silly sound, and I always have it available no matter where I register.

Favorite pic of my furry friend - Feb 2007

There are several variations to Gabutooch when I converse with Romeo, and it is amazing how he understands more than just babble. Goldens are an intelligent breed in general and I am grateful for the day he tottered into my life. How did happily ever after happen? Stay tuned.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Fall Like A Feather

Dec 2007 -
I cannot quite remember if I was looking for anything in particular on that sunny afternoon in the gorgeous hallways of a church in Jerusalem. A prayer stared at me everywhere I looked, the same prayer translated in different languages of the world, for everyone to read.
Was I looking for solitude as I attempted to lose the rest of the group? I am sure I was thinking about my misgivings with regard to religion. The more I think about it, the more I am ill-convinced. Disbelieving of the whole farce that constitutes the perfect path to eternal life. Only one road, apparently. The hogwash just gets to me sometimes. Sorry I digress. So, my photographer friend found me and captured this memory. Thank you C, you are as wonderful as your pictures. Calm is how I felt and it was pretty.

4 Mar 2012 -
I was asked to read a few lines as I silently blended with perfect strangers seated in an almost-perfect circle at our church foyer in Minneapolis.

I didn't have any preparation time, so my heart raced a little at the prospect of reading out these lines -


When you pray lay aside thoughts that peck the body and dive after souls.

Lay aside fears that give birth to needs, concerns that lay ambush to the future, mistakes that make poison the past.

When you pray lay aside thoughts of where you are and what you are doing, of your struggle to walk the path, and even your hopes to leave behind a few final footsteps in the sand.

Then pull from under you what little ground you still stand on and fall like a feather into the hand of God.

Rest there so lightly that when you think about it (which you will not do) , you will feel no longer where you end and where God begins.
(Henri Nouwen)

I am not sure why I was randomly asked to read these lines at the end of a short but sweet busy-person Lenten retreat. It was a one-on-one kind and my spiritual director friend just focused on centering silence for me, because I asked for silence.

I then looked up at these unknown faces, and it didn't matter any more as I sat there awed at a tiny miracle in those few moments of reflection. Calm is how I felt and it was pretty.

Stained Glass @ Newman Center - Mar 2012

I later learned about the interesting life of the deceased author Henri Jozef Machiel Nouwen and a documented account of his struggles.

Friday, March 2, 2012

So Fresh So Clean

I am trying to embrace fresh beginnings, as I begin with a fun Outkast track from their studio album Stankonia.

That said, this post does not mark my initial foray into blogdom, but it is most definitely my first in this space christened 'Beauty In The Breakdown' - stolen from the tickling lyrics of the song Let Go by Frou Frou. My excuse for henceforth abbreviating references to my blog is that it is too long to type, and BITB sounds cool. I have always found joy in abbreviating long phrases, sometimes for the sake of convenience and often times to annoy my friends by playing 'guess-what-I-want-to-tell-you-and-waste-your-time' games.

Pretty Napkin - St Lawrence Church in Dinky Town , Minneapolis - Mar 2012

I am starting to realize that my sentences are either too long with multiple commas or too abrupt. It has been brought to my attention that I exhibit similar symptoms during verbal communication. While I like to attribute it to certain kind of literary style, I am aware that there are times when I narrate stories that not only amuse people but also confuse them. The latter can be frustrating for the listener especially when multiple stories are interwoven, and then the end result is , for lack of a better word, pointless. I giggle and then blink after my excitement of story-telling fades away. For those of you that know me personally, you can vouch for these traits. Several people, even acquaintances of a few hours, have labelled me lost, silent, mad and lo - creative. You know which one I'd pick. I know that I am by no means quiet as much as I am selectively talkative. I feel like this space is good for the monologues that I want refined and well thought of before being spewed out.

This is beginning to sound like a declaration to my non-existent audience but it is more like a note to self. I am going to make a conscious effort to not only channelize my thoughts but also be contemplative of targeting one thing at a time. I have learnt that minimalism is good for the soul and I am also a big fan of the KISS principle - Keep It Simple Stupid. Therefore, yeah.

Mr. Squirrel Stalker - Random park in London - Dec 2009

BITB - You will house my thoughts, experiments in the kitchen, photography, art & crafts, human computer interaction, funky science, advertisements and everything else under the umbrella of creationism. From time to time, I may also discuss matters concerning precious life, the environment, sustainability, meditation and the notion of kindness. My pets and other animals will feature as my stars of course. Selling factor, if you will.

I am going to try and avoid spewing any angst or rant here. I want this blog to be about beauty in the breakdown, remember?

And and and, before I forget, let me explicitly announce - All characters appearing in my posts are not necessarily fictitious. I will however guard your identity out of respect for your privacy and outwardly reputation as much as I hope you will respect mine.

I also say for the sake of completeness, any resemblance to real persons and furry creatures, living or dead, is not purely coincidental. Now that's an honest admission.

Like everything else in this blog, and in order to weave myself out of the liability trap, I shall also make an explicit claim that everything in my life is either temporary or imaginary.

If you repeat that last sentence enough number of times in your mind after me, you will realize that it is a self feeding paradox. If you don't understand even after trying or don't want to try, then you are thinking simple and I applaud you for it. I wish I could do that at times.